When Rejoicing is hard

God gives us trials, but he also sends blessings. This blog helps me sort out my feelings; Xmen Evolution creates a space for me to breathe. Work will provide an area not to focus on the sadness. I will smile, I will pray, write, and today will be challenging, but God will help me through it.

Introvert or Extrovert

I’m an introvert disguised as an extrovert I do not like big crowds or loud parties I find my peace in nature, zoos and books But I have to be an extrovert I play the part very well Pleasing everyone in the public eye Being everything to everybody  Everybody wants something from me I’m an…

10 Years of Marriage

Good Morning friends, I celebrated my 10 anniversary with Jman on Friday, September 18th. Some days its feels like 20 years and other times I remember the day clearly as yesterday. We celebrated by ordering in, getting our favorite cupcakes, getting champagne, and just relaxing and being together. As we had trips planned and other…

Things I am thankful For 9/15/2020

Things I’m grateful for Today 9/15/2020 Today is 9/15/2020 Its the middle of September  Of the year 2020. I am grateful for: Christ’s blood who saved me Jeremiah My family  Rainbows Ncis My apartment My Job(most of the time) My Funko Pops My Books Disney Fans My 10th anniversary is in a few days Sunflowers…

When the world is Loud

When the world is Loud: When the world is loud I want to hide. All my neurons are firing and my sensitive nerves flare up. When the world is loud I want to yell Scream at the top my lungs for silence When the world is loud I want to move  Where the world is…

9 years ago today.

I did end up beating cancer. But the new normal was so different than the old normal. Rubbing alcohol turned my stomach now, jolly ranchers candies were no longer a candy I liked. Haircuts and other such things brought on anxiety. Anxiety and panic attacks became normal. Claustrophobia is a thing I deal with now. We moved from our one-bedroom apartment to living with our family. Jman shifted jobs, and I went back to work. Life was just about surviving.

Trees are beautiful Creatures

Trees are beautiful creatures Trees are beautiful creatures Lush and green Ripe in the spring With cherry blossoms And sweet magnolias gems Standing strong and tall Trees are beautiful creatures Until it’s dark and rainy Wind whipping They are a stationary Monster trying to Break free of their roots Hurling their leaves back and forth…

He Understands…

He understands...He understands the pain.Whether from a nail piercing through the fleshOr a needle barely scratching the skin.Blood flows filled with love, sacrifice and redemption.He understands the feeling of abandonment.From a loved one.From a parent who turned a blind eye to suffering.But saving grace and forgiveness still resounds.He understands the suffering.Drawn out with no chance…

Simply Gratitude

Simple Gratitude Gratitude  A huge word But a small meaning  Thankfulness Genuine thankfulness Is very important  There is a reason why it’s called the magic word It’s the olive branch that takes away the wall It’s the dove that provides peace The white flag that ends the war The brick that begins new wall sturdy…

Trials

You tell us we need to take joy in trial of any kind When the bills never end? When the hurt is hard to be forgiven? You tell us we need to take joy in trial of any kind Even if the sickness never heals? Even if my world is crashing down? You tell us we need to take joy in trial of any kind?