Melancholy of winter

Melancholy of winter.

It’s cold and gets dark earlier and I miss the sun and warm weather. Paired with tiredness, normal busyness, and just plugging along on this road we call life. I am always surprised when I don’t feel happy every single day like I used to as a child. Then I spend days convincing myself that its okay to feel sad or tired. The panic in my mind tells me that something is wrong and I don’t listen. 

Here is a poem that I wrote how I struggle with my feelings.

Have I

Have I let go?

The anger, the hurt, the confusion,

Have I abandoned?

Myself and my goals.

Have I been lost?

Is there a way out of here?

Have I found?

The solution to why this happened.

Have I been faithful?

Stayed on the path you’ve lighted,

Have I stayed true?

Looked to only You?

Have I learned?

You never forsake, forget or abandon.

Have I reached?

Toward the lifesaver, the rope or the magic carpet

Have I leaped?

Walked on unsteady waves, on an invisible bridge or across the flames

Have I searched? 

For Your gleaming face

Have I yelled?

Complained, cried, and cursed

Have I been heard?

Fears, tears, and laughter

Have I??

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If you are struggling today. Listen to positive music, reach out to a friend, read a book or watch a funny movie. Also know that you are not alone. 

John 17:20 20 “My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message,

TTFN and God Bless and Keep You