Melancholy of winter.
It’s cold and gets dark earlier and I miss the sun and warm weather. Paired with tiredness, normal busyness, and just plugging along on this road we call life. I am always surprised when I don’t feel happy every single day like I used to as a child. Then I spend days convincing myself that its okay to feel sad or tired. The panic in my mind tells me that something is wrong and I don’t listen.
Here is a poem that I wrote how I struggle with my feelings.
Have I let go?
The anger, the hurt, the confusion,
Have I abandoned?
Myself and my goals.
Have I been lost?
Is there a way out of here?
Have I found?
The solution to why this happened.
Have I been faithful?
Stayed on the path you’ve lighted,
Have I stayed true?
Looked to only You?
Have I learned?
You never forsake, forget or abandon.
Have I reached?
Toward the lifesaver, the rope or the magic carpet
Have I leaped?
Walked on unsteady waves, on an invisible bridge or across the flames
Have I searched?
For Your gleaming face
Have I yelled?
Complained, cried, and cursed
Have I been heard?
Fears, tears, and laughter
If you are struggling today. Listen to positive music, reach out to a friend, read a book or watch a funny movie. Also know that you are not alone.
John 17:20 20 “My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message,
TTFN and God Bless and Keep You