Reflections on 52 blogs.
Today marks the 52 blogs. Saturday was the 50th. I can’t believe how this blog has helped my journey and my faith. It has become a sounding board for when I feel overwhelmed and a place to escape from the world. Like today, the day after an election there might be a lot of angry people who are venting on Social Media. For an introvert and sponge-like myself, angry people make the world seem even scarier and makes me want to curl up and hide under a blanket.
I need to say thank you to you, my reader. I never thought that there would be people who take time each week to listen to me talk. It’s amazing the feedback I have received and I know this is all from God. Thank You for being a loyal follower and taking time out of your busy day to spend time with me. Thank you for the encouraging comments and helping me feel like I’m not alone in this world. Whether it be difficult blogs like about where I am in this journey called life or a blog devoted to Rogue and her impact on me. You are standing with me and I so blessed to have you as a cheerleader.
My faith in God has become less polluted. Many times before I started my blog, I would have burdens place on my heart. I am a processor, I process everything, it’s like being a sponge but I have to think about everything. Before I buy something I have to compare prices and look at reviews. I over analyze conversations. I analyze recipes before I make them. These burdens would cause me to stress and worry and even have moments of imploding. I was barely managing.
This blog has become a place for me to analyze my emotions and give me the space to put those emotions into a safe place. It has become a thing that I look forward to writing. It has caused me to face those hard emotions and find positive in a dark spot. It has provided lights during dark moments.
I also feel like I hear God voice in a simple way. In a way that I haven’t heard in a long time. God places the topic on my heart and I write about it. In years past God has placed things on my heart, and I ignore it. Even the idea of writing a blog. I have rolled around the idea for years but I always convince myself that nobody wants to hear what I have to say. Or I’m too random for people to follow. I’m not brave enough to pour my heart into a blog. When my friend recommended I start a blog, I felt okay Danie this is not a crazy idea you have come up with, this is God urging you.
My Bible reading has gotten more consistent as well. My Bible reading has had dry spells where I was either exhausted or too mad to read the Bible. But this blog requires me to look for verses and helps my knowledge of the Bible grow.
This blog has allowed a long time dream come true. I have always wanted to be a writer, however, I thought my grammar was horrible,(a side effect of the college professors who were not as encouraging) so the idea of hiring an editor and have them tell how bad my writing was something that I didn’t want to put myself through. This blog allows me to write, in a way that works for me and on the content I choose. I may never get paid for this blog, but it is not the point of this it’s something for me.
Finally, I am finally pouring into my interest. I take care of so many people and love on so many people that I often feel drained at the end of the day. My spongy heart is over saturated and smelly. This blog was the first step to take care of myself. Most mornings I write, I’m excited about it. There are those moments of fear if I show how I’m really feeling it will make you walk away but what I’ve noticed it has brought you closer. You accept me for who I am and that helps me accept me for who I am, and my flaws. I don’t have to be strong and perfect all the time. Just like in Ecclesiastes says there is a time to dance and mourn and to sing. There is a time for everything. I don’t have to perfect all the time.
I thank God every day that I’m here to be able to share my heart with you. Thank you for joining me on this journey and praying for me. Thank you for commenting. Thank you for subscribing.
What has God been challenging you to do???
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8
3 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
TTFN and God bless you and keep you.