Anniversaries

    Tomorrow is my one year of blogging. I have written 126 blogs. Anniversaries have become a big part of my life.  Jman and I’s anniversary is in September. In 2011 I got the initial information that something was wrong at the end of August. After Labor Day, I had my first biopsy. I got my actual diagnosis a week before my first wedding anniversary. I started Chemo at the beginning of October. Finished Chemo in April of 2012, started radiation may of 2012, and finally went back to work in June of 2012.  

   Every year that passes makes the pain go away but not the memories. They are always fresh.

    Enough about cancer. Here is something I learned from being a blogger for a year.

    The days that I thought the sky would fall in, it didn’t. I learned that being personal would not cause the sky to sink in. There were moments that I shared, and I was sure that people would pass judgment or offer advice. However, this did not happen. The opposite occurred, people were supportive and except for a few rude comments. Everyone was kind.

    Photography blogs always get more hits than my writing ones.

    Being kind is more natural than being mean. Every time I started a blog that was negative or rude. I would be reminded that being mean doesn’t solve anything except add fuel to the fire even if it takes me longer to process the mean people in the world. They will not enter my blog.

    Taking breaks is important. Most days, I love jumping on this platform and sharing my reflections, but there are days that it has been hard because of processing something too hard to put into the blog and or going on vacation. But those moments when I have been able to take a break and resume the next day.  Space to breathe is essential.

    Blogging helps so much. I am a private person, however opening my heart and mind every week has helped me observe the world. But sharing my heart every couple of days has made me stronger. I feel like most of my blogs were God-ordained, and even if they helped one person than my writing was for wasn’t in vain. Listening to God’s voice is sometimes heard through the noise of the world; however, it is ever-present and often a whisper. And when you look and make a point to listen, the peace that follows is unexplained. This past year of blogging has been my conscious effort to listen to God’s voice. I can’t tell you how many time’s I’ve started a blog only to have a nagging feeling that this isn’t what God wanted me to write that day.

    My hardest blogs allow me to be more open with others but also with myself. Blogging has allowed me not to shove feelings into a corner and ignore them until they fester.  Blogging has allowed me to process some emotions that I have not even acknowledged since cancer. 

    Blogging allows me to be brave. I don’t like confrontation. I don’t that like people scowling at me. If someone says something to me in a negative tone, I run for the hills.  I avoid it at all costs. The only time I do engage in conflict is when someone is insulting my fandom. Or questions Jman’s motives. Blogging allows me not to be a doormat. I have feelings, and this is a safe way for me to share my thoughts. 

I love writing. And Writing a blog makes me feel like I am a published author. I also love photography. Blogging allows me to do both. 

Thank you for joining me on this adventure. I wouldn’t have continued if I didn’t have such great support. Thank you are reading and listening and commenting. Thank You for being here with me.  You are greatly appreciated 🙂

For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes—the Jew first and also the Gentile.Romans 1:16NLT

TTFN and God Bless and Keep you

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